reflection.

i know i started that other blog or whatever, but this morning, i'm feeling more comfortable writing in here. i was just thinking about love and reading various blogs by various people who i mostly get from lizzy's list, lol. i was just noticing how they express their feelings of love and emotions towards their significant others or maybe a crush and the feeling always seemed to be expressed by the both of them and what im about to say is going to be a reality check for myself. i remember when i was with dave and all the sweet cute blogs i would post about him, the stats i would make for him, the pictures i took and so on and so forth, and not saying that in love everything is even, you know, or saying that i regret anything i experienced with him, but he never made those kinds of things for me, or did any public expressions of his love. a couple of times, he might have made a stat, or posted his favorite picture.. but now i guess he has this new girlfriend, and he posts all these sweet things on her myspace, he never has even commented me on myspace, lmao, and that just makes me kinda ... idk... leaves me here feeling that maybe that wasn't the best relationship i've been in like i thought, you know. maybe he just wasn't all the love that i thought he was. i'm glad that i saw his expressions of love for her. i'm glad he's expressing his damn love to her. atleast she has that. one day, i know, i'll have the love that i seek, but until that time comes, i'll focus on loving what will never leave me, myself.
Sincerely,
Bee.