i love this song.

i don't even know why. i think its so cheesy that i just love it. "first time i felt emotions, was when i came out my mothers womb."

yep, yep.

i talked to my baby allllllllll daaaaaaaaaay.
*blush, blush, blush, blush , blush*
finally.

i needed it. we had fun.
talked about some serious stuff,
then instantly turned it into a joke.
well i just felt the need to say this:

i've fallen & i'm not getting up.

lmao.
thank you ladies and gentlemen.
good-day.
*brandi.bee

heller.

good morning blogspot.

well actually, fuck you all,

hope you didn't sleep well.

=].

i talked to daddy last night.

he could tell that i wasn't ready

for him to go. he always gets to

say bye. i wanna hang up on his

ass some day, lol. -sigh.

daddy: well babygirl, i have to finish up on this work.

me: yeah dave, you go do that.

*he instantly knows im upset*

daddy: honey, i'm sorry i just ..

*i don't even let him finish*

me: baby, its okay , i know you're busy, good night.

daddy: good night baby, i'm gonna try to finish all this work

& i hang up.

why did i do that?

why do i just have to show all my damn feelings all the time?

i can't even hold shit back.

that's a gift and a curse.

i'm glad i can express myself and everything, but

i wish i could keep somethings to myself.

i really like him.

i'm falling haaaaaaaaaard.

i just hope he catches me.

later blog.

good-bye.

sunday, september twenty-third, two thousand and seven;
i brandi ****** browne deleted crushspot.
wow i know after two years on that site, i've decided i've
had more than enough.

certain things have been brought to my attention about
the way people feel about me and the things that i wish
people were open with me about directly, not having to
hear it from "friends."

marcus used to call me a professional lurker, i'm not
sure what that site did to me really. i mean, i'm not
the kind of girl who wants to be all in peoples business,
but people always tell me their shit, they just don't
like to hear my opinion about it.

you go ahead and tell me if that makes sense. . .

yeah okay. that's what i figured.

so many things i thought i was saying in confidence
or to a "friend" have been thrown back in my face.
seriously, seriously, seriously, from my heart
i need people to know this about me,

I, Brandi ****** Browne,
I do not give a fuck about these people when i sign off.
If I have let you into my personal life , seemed to some
what attempt to develop a friendship with you and you
take it for granted, by giving your opinion about me to
other people, when it wasn't asked for, you feel the need
to discuss my actions with others, you get the balls to
say everything that you feel about me to everyone about
me, but at the end of the day, you still feel like I'm the one
who cares too much about your daily activities.
Take a moment to think about who seems to care more.
I forget your ass when I log off.

Yes I am upset.
I'm flattered that everyone thinks all I have to do is think about
them and their e-this and their e-that everyday.
Motherfucker please.
Give me a break.

*to be continued. .

lonely.

today just feels like, i'm gonna be lonely.

didn't talk to him yesterday. i'm not sure

how i feel about it. i miss him. i just want

some attention.

blushes*

i'm sitting here with daddy on the brain.
*blushes.
we talked for a little bit last night.
i've been so busy with school and work
and our schedules have been conflicting,
so i'm really glad that we talked last night.

i'm such a dork.
i get all all cheesy when i hear his voice.
i know that i start blushing and smiling
from ear to ear. lmao.
i can't help it. he just has that affect on me.
i'm not complaining one little bit.

we talked about marriage last night.
not to each other, but just our ideas and views
about it. we share similiar ideas about it.
i personally can't wait to love someone forever,
wake up next to them everyday, fall asleep
next to them every night. -sigh-
i'm excited to be a Mrs. Daddy or whoever
that lucky man will be someday =].

enough mushy stuff.
B.

jena six.

Jena Six.
I'm not one really to talk about political this or that,
or to see the black & white in things. I know that
America still has a LOT of growing up to do & that
we as a country truly aren't the "United States".


Many of the country doesn't even know about the
Jena Six incident that happened in Jena, Louisiana.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YuoiZnr4jLY
Watch that if you don't already know.


America is so quick to act as if racisim doesn't
still exist. The sad reality is that it does, it may
not be as out in the open as it was when blacks
were getting lynched, or when indians walked
the trail of tears, or when japanese were being
targeted in California, but its still going on.


People are so quick to make this a "black and white"
thing. Its an America thing. We always turn our heads
away from events that don't make America look pretty.
I'm sorry but underneath those stars and stripes,
are a lot of hidden secrets and sad stories.


This particulary touches my heart because I don't
understand how today, 2007, people still act shocked
that things like this are going on. Get past the shock,
and wake up. This event was just brought up and its been
going on for over a year. It hasn't been on major news shows,
it hasn't even been on OPRAH. Its a damn shame.


I'm not sure what I can do about it besides tell everyone that
I know about the terrible situation. Wear my "Free the Jena Six"
shirt and hope that someone asks what its all about. These are
six young men, who finally stood up for themselves. Do I think
it was right for them to beat the kid up? No, but obviously right
or wrong doesn't apply to their case.


Let's look at the wrongs:
1: A student feels uncomfortable enough to ask the principal
if he can sit under a tree. That's just not right.
2: Nooses hanging in the tree the next day, in their SCHOOL
COLORS so obviously they were proud of the racist statement
they were making.
3: Kid gets beat up at a party.
4: MAN tries to shoot young men. They take the gun to the police
station and get charged. Since when are criminals bold enough to
turn themselves in? Give me a break.
5: Six kids beating another kid. Now that isn't right, but its like those
kids don't have anyone supporting them. They had to take their
rights in their own hands. They stood up for themselves and look
where they are now.
6: Being tried for attempted murder, when the kid only received a
black eye. I'm sure if they were trying to kill him, they would've.
Being tried as adults, for a school fight. That shows right there, that
they are still "children" therefore, charge them as children.
They don't even deserve a charge. Suspend them from school maybe
but jail? Seriously.
Where are the kids sentences who hung the nooses?
Where is the man that had the gun in the store?
Where are the kids who beat the kid up?


Oh you don't know? That's my point exactly.


Free the Jena six & Wake America UP.


thank you.
-a concerned citizen.

make-up.

today i will be making up for the blogs that i missed.

so yay.

i haven't blogged in a while.

i haven't really been talking to the people that i blog about

that much either, lmao, so today's blogs will not consist

of all those inside jokes and such... blah.

let me get to writing.

:magic:

[=

weirdo.

okay.

this is really bothering the living shit out of me.

antonio, whom i really do like a lot, he's a nice kid.

we're friends, he has mad fan signs from me. we just

enjoy one another, right, well that's what i thought

until about fifteen minutes ago.

Brandi*: you think im weird.

Brandi*: =\ how do i change that?

Antonio.: i don't think u really know to say whats on ur mind, or express urself "good".

Antonio.: &.. at times.. ur just.. random..

Antonio.: like.. ur convo's doesn't connect..

Antonio.: on everything i love.. i'm not trying to be mean at all..

Antonio.: just sayin'.. that's how i percieve u as being.

Antonio.: u still cool peoples in my eyes =]

Brandi*: =\

he calls me weird kinda often, but we still have very good conversation.

i mean i feel like i've opened up to him about some things that are on my

mind. i know i am somewhat reserved towards him, but that's only because

i don't want him calling me weird. i feel like i am myself though and i don't

have any issues with that. i truly feel down right offended.

and the funny thing is, i feel bad for being offended, because that was not his intention.

Antonio,

I know you were just saying what's on your mind

and really i promise, that's just fine.

but being the person that i am, i take things too seriously

and let them get out of hand.

so im taking this moment, to say to you, that i'd like

to say some things that are true:

i am random, i am reserved, i send gms , i may get on your nerves

i'm not always "all there" i' have a lot on my mind,

but i haven't done anything to you , not even one time.

so maybe you're opinion of me can be changed,

i'd like to put this on your brain;

get to know me better and you will see,

there is a lot more to Brandi.

okay, more blogging later

kimipoo.

i love kimi, seriously.

she's like , the most hilarious person i know,

well of course besides myself.

she is a true friend.

we personally haven't had a fight or

anything, but we sure have had a lot

of shit happen to us individually.

people tell us so much shit.

its hilarious.

kimi is like

[inserts gay homo sweet shit here]

the best ever.

QWERTY!!

ernesto.

i know this is random as hell.

but i was kinda missing Ernest, or whoever that
fake nigga is. lmao. damn shame. i miss a fake.

straight face inserted here

thursday.

well, its thursday.

i didn't blog yesterday.

sue me.

anyways, i talked to daddy yesterday.

i needed to hear his voice, i'm glad i did.

i feel some kinda of distance from my baby though.

no babygirl, just brandi these days.

flirting is down to an all time low.

conversation is okay,

more brandi, when it used to be more daddy.

but, i'm still really happy to be talking to him period.

it hurts, cuz i feel like he hurts.

it hurts, cuz i feel like he's holding back.

it just plain hurts.

i've been trying to get everyone to listen to "quickie"

thanks drey, jacked the song from you son.

i can't relate to the song persay, but i like the words.

particularly this line:

"i don't wanna be loved, i don't wanna be loved,

i just want a quickie."

how simple would shit be if people didn't want love, or need to

feel love? hell, i wish i had that problem. but i'm stuck with

the feelings that i have. i, brandi nicole . . . . . . , yearn for

constant reassurance that i'm not alone in a crush, alone

in a relationship, alone in a friendship.

i, brandi, the only child doesn't do well with

being alone.

go figure.

i talked to tallassjay on the phone for the first time last night.

jay: hello

brandi: hey jay, its brandi

jay: who

brandi: brandi!

jay: who

brandi: you know brandi, high.yella. come on jay.

jay: oh, what up.

LMFAO.

damn shame. lets see if call that nigga again.

we did bond yesterday. it was nice.

he's a cool kid & his lovely lady with the

pixelized face is pretty cool, as well.

well i'm gonna go get a snack now.

toodles tots.

-brrrrrrandi*

apology.

i've been telling you i'm sorry since four this morning

and i mean it everytime i say it.

i am more than sorry about what i've done.

i told him that i can't talk to him, that i have

no interest in him, i told him that i'm all about

YOU.

i don't know what to say besides , i feel you in my

heart. i care about you so much, i enjoy every time

that i talk to you. i think about you all the time.

you make my days go by easier and i just can't

imagine you taking all of that away.

baby, i know i hurt you and i am sorry. i just

need to know what it takes to make you okay

and prove that i am ready and willing to do whatever

i have to do. i had no intentions of hurting you

and i never want to hurt you again.

i just want you to be as happy as i am.

i'm crying out, i hope you hear me baby.

deleted.

i made the decision to delete him & that blog.

if you missed it, that's for the better.

i'm just sitting here, wishing i could go back,

but i can't. so with hopes of moving forward,

i deleted the blog & let that motherfucker go.

tuesday.

sunday, monday, tuesday.

third day in a row of my good mood.

third day out of the rest of my life.

brandi is a changing lady,

and its about time.

no more of my mood changing like the season;

lol. if you know me, you know what i mean.

anyhoo,

didn't quite get to talk to daddy last night.

he has so much going on right now &

it's all good. i understand. i'd rather him

be a busy man, then a lazy nigga.

i really hope you noticed the difference in that.

****************************************************

anyways, jason is really kinda gettin on my nerves.

i told him i would call him and sing to him, then he

just gonna start singing, then when i was finally ready

"brandi i'll call you back"

did he? no. am i surprised? NO!

lmao. ugh.

i'm doing so good without the burden of trying

to hold on to friendships that i just KNOW aren't

there anymore. it feels good, not to worry about

those niggas. i wish them all well. i'm sure their

having a wonderful time not having to ignore me

or my calls or texts or whatever kind of ways i

attempted to contact them. yes, my phonebook

is kinda slim now, lol, but its okay. i like it better, ♥.

lemme get back to work though.

i'll blog more this afternoon.

later folks,

-signed the lady

previously known as

emotional overload.

evenin folks.

jai booskie is like totally HATING on my play list.
"BRANDI YOU'RE GEEKED"
damn right i am!
what you gonna do about it JAI?! nada.
keep makin stats about our geeked asses *blushes, lmao.

anyhoo, drey got me working like a slave,
mind you i am a house nigga, since he found out
i can work fileden.
me and my big mouth.

anyways, i caaaaaaaaaaaaaaan

noooooooooooooot

waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaait

to talk to daddy tonight.

mmmm.

we've been texting all day

*drops mic*

you guys think what you wanna think.
wink motherfucking wink!

buenos tardes.

afternoon folks.

i'm having a lovely day.

i had a lovely lunch.

i plan on having a lovely night,

no one is going to mess that up.

blah its like 1:28 everyone is leaving me,

so i guess i'll write this damn blog.

*an hour later*

im so damn itchy. i think i'm having an allergic reaction

to the headphones i wear at school. feels like my face

is burning. -sigh- eh school sucks, but atleast its free.

i'm having such a hard time trying to concentrate.

so many things are running through my mind.

i've let a lot of people go this week, without letting them know that i'm

just sick of them and their bullshit. so i'm trying to figure out how i'm going

to react if and when they attempt to contact me.

eric and i aren't friends anymore.

manny and i aren't friends anymore.

katherine and i aren't friends anymore.

reese and i aren't friends anymore.

qadir and i aren't friends anymore.

well i'm not sure.

i've given him a week without trying to ..interrupt him and

he hasn't really talked to me first, which is all i wanted.

i refuse to give anymore more time than they give me.

and the list goes on. what's a friend anyways?

nowadays seems like people just want you around

to tell them what they want to hear. well i hate to burst

your motherfucking bubbles, but i'm not gonna just be the

type of friend who says what you want to hear,

i'm the type of lady who says what you need to hear.

even if its something that i shouldn't say.

i told drey i was going to stop being a "captain save a ho".

it does get pretty draining. i'm just gonna let these niggas get their

hearts broken. they only want me for what i know anyways.

fuck them, fuck them all.

i don't have time to give them all the information that

their bitches should've given them.

plus i have better things to do,

like be good to the people who are good to me.

just wanna list a few names. <3

kimipoo, daddy, hot chocolate, rinsypoo, dreydiggity,

jaibaby, hotcakes, nightie, ellie, rina & pablo.

thats enough for now.

well this is my longest blog so far. don't bitch about it,

just read it. its my motherfucking blog anyways!

lmao !

hollllllllllller,

brandi f. baby.

release.

well that was some good chocolate cake. mmmmm.

now that's im all happy and everything, i've decided to blog.

my booskie, Jai, has been blogging all day, lol.

she's so happy she found her password & as soon as i

figure out how to work this crap, i'll link her blog.

i feel, like an old ass woman who doesn't know anything about the interent , when i get on this site.

:

anyways, my babe, donte, helped me feel alot better.

its time to let emmanuel go. goodbye nigga, hope you miss me.

i would say you were a waste of my time, but that'd be a lie.

i'm not even sad or anything. just upset you thought lying was the answer.

i'm talking to daddy right now.

he's making me feel all blushymushy.

he is very very very very very very good at that.

^_^

today has been a pretty good day honestly.

i've learned a lot of things about myself.

i'm finally becoming the Brandi i want to be.

hope that doesn't leave you in the dust.

;]

that's all kiddos.

hollerrrrrr.

second.

enough of that. so "daddy" as i like to call him,

tells me " i got him". i felt my heart skip a beat.

isn't that sweet guys.

*moment of silence for brandi's happiness*

lmao, thanks.

ooh i made a new friend today. she's freakin hilarious.

my booskie, jai.

lmao@ sinbad. ah, she seems mad cool. not on that bullshit, like most

of the bitches i know these days. that's why i have to just do me & fuck the rest.

i'd like to say this, i am a good friend, i'm a great person.

if you know me, you know that's true.

if you don't know me, get to

and if you don't want to , well, POO on you!

night babies*

-brandiiiiiiiiii

brandi, basically.

My first blog, how lovely.

the name is brandi.

people who know me call me bee, brandi bee, B, lol, lots of different names.

i'm nineteen, currently residing in oklahoma city.

i go to school every single day of the week.

monday, tuesday, wednesday, thursday, friday.

ooh i work. i like my job, i'm just not sure how long i plan on staying there lol.

i'm like.. super tall. i have a lovely smile.

hell, i think i'm a pretty girl,i just don't like when others disagree. [=

i decided to make this blog, because, i always ALWAYS have something on my mind.

hmm, i like this guy. he's pretty spiffy. i usually talk talk talk talk talk , but for the

first time, in a long time, i just like to listen to every single thing he has to say.

he's a very interesting individual to say the least. *blushes

i have every intention to keep him around for a while.

but hey, i have to get ready for work*

hasta luego, blog.

-B!