its early.

good morning, people who never read my blog.
i sometimes wonder who really reads it.
i know i'm all up in everyones. :ninja:
its very interesting to see who everyone is.
majority of them act like they blog,
but others... can't quite say the same.

anyhoo, i heard from him in a roundabout way yesterday.
i've waited two months to hear from him.
TWO MOTHERFUCKING MONTHS.
& you know what, it still made me cry.

my friend decided to hit him up, and this is what he said:

i sent her a very long email awhile ago. i just didnt say anything since .. it made no sense to keep responding .. i just let it go so she can move on .. tough love is the best love sometimes... She's my baby forever but she needs more than I can give ..

I really don't know how to feel about that. I never received the email, and I hope he's willing to send it again, so I could get some sense of closure. I guess that's a nice thing for him to say. I know I can be a bit much, and I guess maybe that overwhelmed him. Maybe if he would've brought it up, things could've gotten better. But, I was doing so good, until she showed me that.
I had deleted pictures of him, old texts, making decent progress, then yesterday, it just.. i kinda just lost all that. I read the old messages, and everything. I think I'm going to write a poem.

Well, good morning ya'll.