smh.

i sent this gm today


dearest everyone, i'm going through a hard time in my life, where a smile isn't healing shit. the wounds are much deeper than i've felt in a long time. i've been counting, and i've cried everyday since april 19th. i'm sick of being unhappy, i'm sick of wishing for a better tomorrow, and ending up with a fucked up today. love was my answer to everything, but i must have all the wrong questions, because love isn't doing a damn thing for me right now. i'm sorry about this gm. please go on about your business. smile for me today, alright. B*

fucking pathetic. i wish i could just turn my heart off, and move on.. but when you give everything, you're left with nothing. so i'm walking around empty-handed and heavy-hearted.