hyper-emotional

you know today was the real icing on the reality cake. i am guilty of being over emotional i know that, you all know that, but i didn't really think about how it affects other people. so i was talking to ellie about a friend of mine, who i kind of noticed withdrawing from me. it was Lorenzo aka Rinsypoo. today he and i talked. ended a year long friendship. why you might ask. because my talking too much, blaiming everything on everyone else, bitching moaning & groaning finally overwhelmed him. friendship came to an end because of me dragging a situation into the ground. like i even ask myself , Brandi why the fuck are you still talking about that, so if i'm sick of talking about it, why the fuck would anyone else want to hear about it? i've already been embursed into my new self and he didn't even get to experience it. but like i told omari, i don't beg anyone to be my friend. i don't beg anyone for anything. if you want to get to know me , its a voluntary thing. i have no intentions to ever lose another friend because of me being too much- emotionally, bitching and moaning too much. that cuts deep. like me being who i don't want to be, being a burden on others. i've had enough. i can run through a list of people who i've affected with my emotions. damn shame. i'm going to let this marinate. rinsy, love you, but shit happens huh. i was talking to my baby, he said babygirl, it all boils down to shit happens and he's right. *this is completely off subject but i see myself loving him. he makes me forget about all the shit that happes, the shit thats going to happen and the shit that has happened. daddy is my breath of fresh air and i love the feeling that he gives me. from the top of my head to the bottom of my feets. and i have big ol feets, lmao. =] <3 so very much, brandi.