wednesday.

this blog is very specific, but shall remain anonymous
actually i shouldn't even write about it, so i'm just going
to explain my feelings.

a friend of mine told me a lot of things about himself today.
i can honestly say that i adore him. he's always well almost
always there for me to talk to. we talk about everything
but he was hiding something for so long, that i never knew
and i now that i know, i'm not even sure what to feel.

its almost like a slap in the face, him keeping this from me
like he couldn't tell me. i understand why he didn't. he
doesn't think he can trust me, but he let me in today and
that feels really good. so i would like to write this to him,

Hey you,
Thank you for trusting me.
Thank you for opening up to me.
I'm upset that you kept this from me,
but its not my life its yours, so I understand.
I wish maybe I would've known things,
so I could've helped you feel better
or tried to cheer you up, but I just have
to accept that you kept this to yourself.
We probably won't have any conversations
regarding this, I understand that too.
It makes me so utterly uncomfortable to even
ask you any questions pertaining to this.
I'm hurting because I guess I thought more
of our friendship. But now that I know the
things you're going through, no wonder you
have been more distant. I won't judge you,
I still care for you, I'm still here for you, it
just might take me some time. I guess you are
the person that I thought I knew, I just have to
convence myself of that. I'm sorry <3